Death as the Great Epiphany

I have had a second friend/teacher transition in the past five months.  I suppose this could be an epiphany of sorts or it could be a way to push me forward on my own, no one else to lean on and standing on my own two feet.  As in the past!

I was always a strong woman.  One with ideals and ideas; one who didn’t hesitate to stand up and do what was right for the greater good.  Confidant outwardly, yet willing to admit my own weaknesses to myself if there was no one else to admit them to. I rather liken that to why I am writing this blog.  Not sure if it’s for me or for others to read over and revisit a thought process or practice in philosophy.  Um…..that would be an epiphany, I believe.

Traditionally the Feast of Epiphany in the Catholic Church (from whence I have evolved) was about a visit to the infant Jesus by three Kings, Gaspar, Melchior, and Balthazar (aka the three wise guys).  And as I see it, this is what an epiphany in fact is…..revisiting a thought or assumption with renewed vision, or Wisdom.  These three Wise Men or Magi, mark the end of the official Christmas season today, but marked a beginning so many years ago.  And so we have a beginning and an end.

My friend was a priest for whom I worked.  He was my boss, my mentor, the proverbial thorn in my side, and my friend.  For my part I was an inquisitive student, challenging him along the way, and pushing my boundaries as employee at times, but through it all we were each able to remain friends.  Mutual respect for the giftedness of the other colored the essence and bond of friendship.  There was an understanding of how to work together to create and weave liturgy and music into an experience that spoke to the assembled believers and spoke to each other as well.  Many, many talks were had and these often led to an epiphany of one sort or another.  And so things went on  for each of us in different ways as my family moved to a different part of the country and my friend eventually retired from his everyday job as Pastor and became a retreat leader.

He was a gifted celebrant and those who knew him well hoped he would live long enough to preside and preach at our own funerals.  And so the title of this piece…the Great Epiphany for those who knew and loved C. Donald Howard, S.A. have to face the wisdom that has surfaced – That the loss of self is to miss out on the wisdom that would have been sought. A true epiphany.


Seek and you shall find…

And so goes the saying as we know or interpret it! As a young mother of young children, I often employed this phrase in my child rearing.  “Mom!  I can’t fiiiind it!” would be the battle cry.  I would ask if they had looked everywhere yet.  “Yes, I have looked everywhere for (insert missing item – it applies to all parents everywhere!)”  I would tell my children that had they looked everywhere they would have found said item.  “Oh yeah,” they would say as they muttered off to find whatever they had misplaced.  And no, it did not always work so easily, but it was well worth the lack of looking on my part until they had at least truly scoured the house for what they were in dire need of at the moment.

What, you may be asking, does that have to do with all of the channeling you have spoken of in earlier posts? Clearly, the relevance of the story is not about losing something, but rather about seeking.  We are all seekers no matter the age.  And we seek until we find that which is important to our own understanding of our own life. Some seek our own counsel.  Others seek the obvious  counselor that meets their current third dimensional need, whether it is legal, medical, religious, or philosophical.  We seek the counsel of those who are trained in coming up with an answer when someone else comes up with a question; yet often the answer is found within.  We intrinsically know this.  How do we identify this in our own selves?  Well, for starters, we seek others’ opinions and then disagree with them.  No, we say, that’s not “right” or “relevant” or “you are way off base on that one.”  Why that response?  Perhaps it is because we do know the answer already.  We want someone else to validate what we already know to be true.  We want them to seek and find……..and agree with what we already know has been sought and found out!

So what is this all about, this game playing of  who gets to take responsibility for whose lives and life decisions? And why do we ever feel that our own opinion, our own intuition, our own gut instinct is less than precise for us than someone else’s opinion is about us?

Hmmmm….. good question, yes?  How many times do we need to ask the same question of different sources before we find an answer that we like to hear?  For some, the answer is MANY!  Some take the best two out of three or three out of five, etc.  But the point here is that often we have the ability to come up with an answer and we just plain and simply do not trust ourselves.  It appears that others are more trustworthy.  We have ignored that nagging feeling in our gut that crops up and tells us to look again at what we are doing.  Look more closely at a decision we have or are about to make.  And we blame ourselves for having those thoughts about a doubtful situation.  But who is really talking? Where do these thoughts come from?  Most often, these are the words of our guide or our angel/s giving us advice.  It’s not some random thought that one has that should be abandoned.  It is the still of the night whispering in our mind’s ear that gives us the most truth.  And we need to heed that truth.  And listen for that truth.  For in hearing, in listening, in opening our hearts to the sound of our internal selves, we are in the presence of  our own God Source Energetic process.

So open your heart, and open your ears, and open your eyes!  See the love and understanding that is offered.  Hear the essence of the words before you. And feel the truth in your heart.  You are valued.  You are loved.  You are your own best intuitive guide!  Be in touch with who you are and believe!

Love and Light!




And in the ordinary is found extraordinary…..

We are all welcomed today by a gathering of the Angelic Kingdom,
We see through the eyes of Zadkiel, hear through the ears of Raphael and speak through the mouth of Gabriel. As we move through the Divine and the Divine engages us we encounter Chamuel and Jophiel who seeks God and who seeks Truth. And all are guided and protected by Michael, Blessed Strength and Courage.

It is through the voices of Angels and Archangels that we hear in the silence that which we need to guide our path. The way shines brightly by the Illumined Angels; we can move in the darkness with no realization of the negative. For surrounding us is the Illumination of Greater Energy, Lighter Energy and the brightness of our holiness in the ordinary of our days.

It is time. It is time to gather close those whom we love. It is time to gather close those who love us and as we convene our light manifests a brightness to dispel all darkness. This is a force of change to wedge the darkness away from the Light. This is a force of change that is grander than what we can manifest on the earthly plane, for the Angelic Kingdom shines its collective Light and raises us all to a new energetic vibration.

Once you have seen, you cannot un-see. Once you have heard you cannot un-hear. Once you have been awakened, an emotional sleep can no longer be had.

In your heart center dwells the Mastery of Change and the only choice is for the Good, the God-ness, to continue. Unleashed upon the self it cannot be denied. One is called to move forward into a new and more beautiful arena based on Love, Faith, Understanding, Caring, Compassion and Truth.

In our Truth – in our shared Truth of Universal law- is found the basis of our humanity and our Divinity. We become a gathering of the Divine in Human Form, devoid of judgment. Devoid of discord. Devoid of discriminate thought, deed and feeling.

This is humanity at her best Divine Self!


A rose by any other name….

So many times we hear someone who is a channel begin their channeled passage with “Greetings!”  We believe this sounds very alien in nature so we will greet you in terms that would be familiar to you on this human plane.

We have come through today to speak to you of TRUTH.  In this regard we speak of Divine Truth:  that which has no counter, no negative issue to balance it to make it a believable state of being.  Being in TRUTH is being in total and complete surrender to that which is Divine.  All beings on Earth are not of the Earth.  Many are still acclimating to this presence and have a longing for their roots, their point of origination or that place where they were formed in many and varied ways.  It is in this TRUTH that the formation of who you have come to be is most alive in you.  There is clarity to what you see, what you experience, and this becomes an awareness of who you are in TRUTH.

Many do not wish to engage in the mirror, they choose to turn away from that which they cannot stand to see.  This is fear that keeps them at bay.  It becomes a conundrum in that the fear that prevents them from moving forward is the same thing that draws them into the basis of who they truly are.

Finding your Truth

Emboldened, emblazoned, and written in my heart are the words of Mankind’s Alternate Remote Consciousness – MARC

Here we are to find the words of TRUTH. Divinely inspired words that spring from this consciousness. Not devoid of Angelic voices, but rather enhancing those that speak through us. We gather to give insight into what is to be the future of mankind. There is already evidence of those Universes that exist far beyond what you know here on earth. Far beyond that which you have imagined. What folly to think a Supreme Being could create – would create – Earth, and STOP??? There would be an infinite number of possibilities that are yet to be found (?) really? Found? Or perhaps recognized. Recognized as a likelihood and not a probability. Recognized as an extension of this God/Source/Universe and not an either/or capacity for being.
As we continue to make the consciousness of mankind more attuned to the frequencies needed for advancement, further discoveries will be made (?) No – recognized. Perhaps we are not so bound by what can be comprehended as we are by our need to KNOW. The need to know is definable. It is within dimensions of understanding as opposed to the openness of possibility that is the greater of these two.

The laws of physics are said to be definable by only one human dimensional standard. When in reality the infinite exists and serves the greater good of both human existence as well as the existence of other worlds filled with an equal and/or greater level of compassion, understanding, wisdom and care. The comfort of this is that we have no reason to fear what lies ahead for any one or all of us who imbue this earthly plane. For one day will be seen not only a centrist movement of one world toward another but also a combined center to many worlds as they are finally made known to us.

The earthly mind is a lower mind of thought, limiting in possibility and in understanding, but capable of expansion once fully awakened. The need to go into detail regarding the specifics of a situation will give way to broader understanding and greater acceptance of an entire Galactic Universal System and this will be seen in the years ahead. Known by your progeny and accepted by those of your heart.

Stand in solidarity. Stand alone in solidarity. No need for fear. No need for doubt. No need for a sense of loneliness. Alone is not loneliness. Alone in solidarity is many into one.   E Pluribus Unum — from many, One. This is the truest form of this phrase and is the reason this phrase was used by founding fathers of your nation. There was no conception of its’ truest meaning at that time. But this will arise and be renewed in meaning and understanding. There will be an awakening; a re-awakening to meanings implicit and explicit as the future unfolds.


First message from MARC

We are Mankind’s Alternate Remote Consciousness. We come through to explain there is more beyond what you know. Other Univereses, other Galaxies, all have other souls and soul planes. Not all are able to manage the density of Earth. So for this reason only a handful come here. Earth offers a fun place to experience life and gives many and varied sequences to learning.

We come through Sheila as channel because she does not hold on to things. She is a clear channel – a pure channel that allows our words to flow. We come to let earth know of how important it is to truly stay within the expectations of what you came to do. Now more than ever the earth is spinning faster and moving forward to a higher vibration. No time to mess around! Do not be left behind to work out this earthly game. You all do play a game. You are in a play and your costumes or armor keeps you defined within it. Please look beyond the physical; reach out to the Veil of Truth and make this your own. Reality is only limited by your lack of vision, your lack of imagination and your lack of development as a soul.

All for now.


Promises of Rainbows

With so much water everywhere in the lower half of the US right now, we still find it is at a premium.

In a small southeastern town that may be on the trajectory of Irma’s fury, locals tell of “water hoarding” where the local Walmart has been the scene of the every man for himself attitude when it comes to bottled water. So is that preparedness by a bunch of middle aged boy scouts or is it irrational fear from a rational but possible threat?!

People can choose to allow their fears to take the lead and even if you have rain in the forecast and you know that you may get wet (though it will be nowhere near the stress and pressure of the aftermath of a hurricane), there really is no need to feel the fear nor step into it with fervor.  As a community, as a nation we can also choose to watch out for the others who might have more on their proverbial plate than we do for the time being….a Rainbow’s promise! So just a gentle reminder out there to watch for promises of Rainbows when we need some help for ourselves!


Musings from MARC

I have been channeling for a number of years now.  Mostly Archangels come through to offer words of wisdom.  Divine Mother also has come through to provide a gentle side to how we view things in this world we find ourselves together in.

But about 6 months ago,  a collective began to channel through me  as well.  They call themselves Mankind’s Alternate Remote Consciousness.  MARC for short.  They have been very patient with me as I have become accustomed to their presence.  They come in a bit differently than the Archangels do.  I find them very interesting, very much to the point in their delivery, and with a great sense of humor.  Sometimes they feel abrupt by comparison to what I am used to but that is their style and so I am getting more comfortable with their forthright presentations.

If you are wondering what a “collective” is, I can best describe it as a group of souls who have lived their lives on earth, found their purpose and mission here and followed it through to fruition.  They have many different ways of experiencing things and expressing things but have agreed to come through as one voice.  This gives the rest of us the advantage of the group’s experience but without so many voices to listen to.

At the current time, MARC is presenting me with prayers and meditations with which to lead groups gathered to hear what they have to say. I will be presenting their ideas and ideals as they present their advice for those of us incarnated souls.  Hopefully we will be able to learn more about how to do what we do.  How to live as we should and how to interpret what the heck is going on in this world we have chosen to enter together!

With that, I will leave you hopefully interested enough to return and find out what Musings will be forthcoming from MARC!


The beauty of transitions

We all have reasons for why we take pen to paper or fingers to keyboard and share a part of ourselves.  They vary greatly and mirror our place in life at the moment.  And so we use this to share our joy and our pain, to unleash the upset or the happiness within, or sometimes to find out what and how we are really feeling.  And we don’t find out until we read our words, hear them in our mind’s ear to know, to understand the depth of feelings we carry for this moment in time.

I am the last one–I write to find out how I really feel.  And today has been one of those down-ish days.  You know……like day 3 of a cold.  All the symptoms hit you at once and you just want to release them.  Truthfully, though, I am on day four.  Someone who played an integral part in my life if only for a few short years, has transitioned.  She has moved on to a new space.  I am sure it is a softer spot on which to rest and she is without pain.  That is the best part.

I am sad.  I am not woeful. I just won’t be able to go have coffee when I visit in the town I moved from.  But we can still share the presence of self.  We can still share the energy of the Soul.  And for this I rejoice.  Deanne taught me a lot of things about myself without even saying a word.  She was able to live in her own energetic space and revel in her prayer and in her meditation.  In the past 9 months she was no longer able to do her work the way she wanted to.  She was in a lot of pain.  But she wouldn’t admit it.  Though some days she would talk to me about it.  And that is how I knew her pain.  Shared it within my own pain. Without complaint.  Just a recognition and an acknowledgment that some days were better than others.

And so now with transitions of all types going on at many levels, we see that some transitions bring change, some transitions bring us where we did not want to be, but some transitions bring us home again.  And that is the beauty of it all.